I look up in the sky...
I see the moon..
All alone..
And i wonder..
If it felt what i did...
Lonely..
Sad..
Odd...
But i look carefully again..
It is surrounded by many many shining stars..
And i wonder again..
If..
There are people around me...
Who care..
and love me...
Just that i am not aware of it..
Mayb...
Just maybe...
These shining stars..
Could be the people i hate most..
But i will never know, will i?

Tears flow down my cheek..
As i look yet again at the sky..
I imagine..
Heaven...
UP there....
With all my wonderful and precious ones..
Who have left me alone here..
I wonder..
When i will join them...
I remember..
How much fun i had..
With them..
And hate them a little..
For leaving me..
Isolated..
Alone..
In this strange world..
Full of mystery...
Full of hate...
Full of resentment...
When will there be peace in my soul?
When?
I ask the lord...
He doesn't tell me...
He remains silent..
What does that mean?
Does it mean i'm alone?
or Does it mean I'm suppose to suffer in silence...
I will never know, will i?

I'm on the verge of losing faith in anything..
But some people..
Just a few...
Who give me that little bit of hope...
To live life to the fullest..
i thank them...
For being with me..
Even when i irritate them sometimes..
Being there for me..
when i'm troubled...
When i'm sad..
When i'm happy..
I owe you guys a lifetime..
U give me all the hope i need..
To live..
To survive..
To endure...
And..
To persevere...
Thank you...
You are the best!...



Vicky..